Wow, it been a while since I've blogged... Where to start? Well, I've been out of work for about 3 weeks now, because I've been so dizzy, can't sleep, and getting these crushing headaches. Vicelike headaches, especially on my right side, accompanied by stabbing pains. Finally got in to see my ENT about it this past Monday; his theory is that there is still some swelling in my sinuses from the surgery which are causing the headaches, which is causing me to lose sleep. Seems like a sound theory. He gave me some new antibiotics, some more lortabs for the pain, and some sleeping pills. The sleeping pills have been working good for me, not getting awakened by the headaches, until last night. But I think last night was an exception. You see, Monica and I were making out and making love, but I never came. In fact, after she came, I lost it. I think the sleeping pill took out my libido instead of me. I mean, I still wanted to have sex, and we tried, but it just wasn't going to work. (I don't believe I just posted that.)

Meanwhile, I got papers in the mail today for short-term disability. So at least I'll be making up a little for the money I'm losing. Now I just need to grow the gonads to call a shrink. I'm just afraid of the emotional outpouring I'm sure is to come. I guess it would be for the better though; I can't keep everything thats bothering me all bottled up. Plus, I really need to know where this irrational fear of stinging insects came from. I feel stupid every time a bee flies by and I cringe, duck, or actually run away. What a baby.