I'm so sick of being dizzy it's not funny.

Wait a minute, I think I've said that before.... odd.

So Tuesday night I'm working and I'm thinking about stuff like money, bills, and the fact that I'm the only one working to support 7 people. Then I have an anxiety attack. That was scary. My head got all swimmy, like disjointed. My heart started pounding and my chest got all tight; I felt like I was drowning. I had rolls of labels in my hands at the time and they went flying down to the packer area. I was not in control of myself. That was scary. I finally got a little calmer and went to the bathroom to calm down. Sat down, read a conveniently placed magazine for about 15 minutes, went back out to work. 2 minutes later I'm feeling it all again. Hell, my head is getting all swimmy just thinking about it now.

Break time came, and I made a break for home. I turned up the music, trying to ignore the things in my head. By the time I got to the house I was nearly in tears, and I broke down once I got inside. Talked to my friend Tony for a little about it; he's had them before and told me how he handled them. That helped a bit. I made it through the rest of the night with only twice coming close to taking someone's head off. Trust me, it was tempting.

So yesterday I woke up dizzy. Today too, for that matter. So now I'm wondering if there is some kind of connection between them. I mean, I know that stress is a trigger for my Meniere's disease, and is the main trigger for anxiety attacks, but I wonder if there's something else too. I just didn't imagine that the same stress would be affecting me for 2 days like this. I missed work yesterday, and I'll probably end up missing today too. And I was out all last week. I don't fucking need this right now.