Asshole redux

I thought I was getting somewhere... I thought I was doing it right.

Nope.

Apparantly, I can't be a nice guy. I have to be an asshole.

For the past few days I've been doing great with my units. We got along fine, people did what they were told, I didn't have to write anyone up. I was even told by a couple guys that they hoped I'd be back on their unit because I was cool.

But now that I think about it, I don't think it's because they think I'm cool, it's because I'm tolerant. I let them get away with things that other people would write them up or take points for. And it bit me on the ass today, like a viper I thought I'd tamed.

This sucks because I still don't want to be the asshole, but I know in order to do my job right, I have to be. This sucks because a couple of the kids I kinda like will probably not like me after this, and the kids that don't like me will really hate me. But I'm not there to keep them happy, I'm there to do my job and make sure they don't screw up.

Ahh... how appropriate... "Until it Sleeps", by Metallica. Kinda describes how I feel inside.

In other news, I've switched antidepressants. from Lexapro to Wellbutrin XL. I'll let ya know how that works in a few weeks when I can tell the difference. And if.