Indecisive
Here I am again.
For those of you not involved in my personal life, here's a summary of what's been going on in my life for the past 2 months.
I lost my job at Nashua. At first I made a couple of half-hearted attempts at finding a job, applying for unemployment. Found out I wasn't eligible for unemployment benefits because I lost my job due to my own fault; Nashua maintains that I didn't call in sick for 3 days in a row. And maybe I didn't. Its possible that I mis-remembered the events of that week, that I thought I had called in when indeed I hadn't. Doesn't really matter now.
So how have I been living? I cashed in my 401k plan for about $5000 and have been living off of that. Getting by on food stamps and the money we have in the bank. I've applied for jobs at a few places and heard nothing about it, until today.
Last week I applied online for a job with Pepsi, going store to store merchandising. Today I got a phone call from them, and set up an interview for tomorrow (well, today now) at 8:30 AM. But after a lot of thought about it, I don't want to work for Pepsi as a merchandiser. The job basically entails me driving from store to store in an area, stocking shelves and coolers, and making end-cap displays. Thinking more about it, the job sounds to me like a glorified stock person job. And that's not what I want to do for a living. I don't want this to end up being another Nashua job, where I hate the work I do. Yes, I'd be bringing money home (it pays $9.40/hr to start), but I'd end up hating it. I can already see that.
What DO I want to do? I want to build computers. I want to pick out a motherboard, put it in a case, select an appropriate processor, throw in a hard drive, RAM, CD drive, and any other components that the specs require. I like working with my hands. That was one of the only good things about working for Nashua/Rittenhouse. I got to work with my hands. I worked pretty fast, and I was accurate. I enjoy working with tools. I enjoy precision. I like building things, even though my engineering knowledge is extremely limited.
I would love to start a business out of the house building and selling computers. I have no idea how to start something like that, nor do I have the capital to invest in any part of it, whether it be for parts or for professional training. And there's no place around here that does that kind of thing. I would love to work for Dell or Gateway or Alienware putting together computers.
I'm really considering buying that book by Matthew Lesko about government programs/money. Perhaps I can find some info in there about how to get some money to start a business or to use for schooling.
That's all I have for now. I apologize for my silence.
For those of you not involved in my personal life, here's a summary of what's been going on in my life for the past 2 months.
I lost my job at Nashua. At first I made a couple of half-hearted attempts at finding a job, applying for unemployment. Found out I wasn't eligible for unemployment benefits because I lost my job due to my own fault; Nashua maintains that I didn't call in sick for 3 days in a row. And maybe I didn't. Its possible that I mis-remembered the events of that week, that I thought I had called in when indeed I hadn't. Doesn't really matter now.
So how have I been living? I cashed in my 401k plan for about $5000 and have been living off of that. Getting by on food stamps and the money we have in the bank. I've applied for jobs at a few places and heard nothing about it, until today.
Last week I applied online for a job with Pepsi, going store to store merchandising. Today I got a phone call from them, and set up an interview for tomorrow (well, today now) at 8:30 AM. But after a lot of thought about it, I don't want to work for Pepsi as a merchandiser. The job basically entails me driving from store to store in an area, stocking shelves and coolers, and making end-cap displays. Thinking more about it, the job sounds to me like a glorified stock person job. And that's not what I want to do for a living. I don't want this to end up being another Nashua job, where I hate the work I do. Yes, I'd be bringing money home (it pays $9.40/hr to start), but I'd end up hating it. I can already see that.
What DO I want to do? I want to build computers. I want to pick out a motherboard, put it in a case, select an appropriate processor, throw in a hard drive, RAM, CD drive, and any other components that the specs require. I like working with my hands. That was one of the only good things about working for Nashua/Rittenhouse. I got to work with my hands. I worked pretty fast, and I was accurate. I enjoy working with tools. I enjoy precision. I like building things, even though my engineering knowledge is extremely limited.
I would love to start a business out of the house building and selling computers. I have no idea how to start something like that, nor do I have the capital to invest in any part of it, whether it be for parts or for professional training. And there's no place around here that does that kind of thing. I would love to work for Dell or Gateway or Alienware putting together computers.
I'm really considering buying that book by Matthew Lesko about government programs/money. Perhaps I can find some info in there about how to get some money to start a business or to use for schooling.
That's all I have for now. I apologize for my silence.
posted by Tom at 1:58 AM
1 Comments:
Darling, If that is what you want then you have to go for it. Apply at Dell and Gateway online. I will move for you to be happy. There are computer stores in our area that build computers, hell in our town. Look in the yellow pages, go see them, talk to them, like you blogged. you can do this if you try. And once you get some experience, you will have the capital to try something out of the house. I love you dearly, but money is getting low and someone, preferably a manthing, needs to get a job, any job at this point. We are getting too low on money to be picky. I will support you in anything that you want to try, but you must TRY!!! Do something to reach your goal! I love you.
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