Friday, January 09, 2004

Why is it that I start feeling better at night? Whenever I'm dizzy, I always seem to feel less so in the evenings, unless I'm tired. And I get this nervous but hopeful feeling that maybe I'm getting better.... But I won't know until morning, when I either heave a sigh of relief, or put my head back down on the pillow because I'm too dizzy to get up.

Semi-frozen Pepsi is really yummy. Especially with a baked potato.
I don't think I could get more depressed right now. I've been having dizzy spells for the past 3 days now, and I fell pretty damn useless. Used up all 2 of my personal days at work. Can't call in vacation days at work, they won't let us anymore. Can't get in to see my ENT cuz he's all booked up. And now its snowing. OK, I'd be more depressed if it was raining, but this is a close second. Speaking of which, I need to go take my meds... BRB.

I hate this... I hate the fact that its recurring. I wish it was over and done with. I know its not like I've got cancer, but at least cancer either gets cured or it kills you. And there's no telling when its going to hit, or how bad its going to be... Some days I can wake up dizzy and be fine by the time I go to work, and some days I get like I've been this week. What I'd really like to know is what's triggering it. I was a little dizzy Monday, but that was most likely from the salty food at Applebee's. (Bourbon Street steak and shrimp in case you were wondering.) I haven't had anything very salty since then except for a bowl of soup, and that was still less than my daily value. And I've been avoiding salt for the past 3 days on purpose, so it can't be salt. I'm a little congested but nothing major, and I can still breathe through my nose, so I don't think that is it. WHAT THE FUCK IS IT???

Oh yeah, there's water in my basement again from the melting snow.... (see previous blog entry)